One of our daughters just asked me this question. She then followed with would you buy a different house? My first answer was no, I just want to have no debt. We then discussed college expenses and saving then then conversation topic fizzled.
The conversation fizzled out, but the thought of this question continued to weigh on me. A million dollars does not actually go far in our world today it could be a start. My self evaluation question became, “If money were no object what would you do?” Then cycling back to the house question my answer started to turn to a yes.
For years now God has put this burning compassion for children who have been rejected and beat down by this world on my heart. For one year now we have been in the trenches of Foster Care. The more of the true story and true pain I see this compassion just grows stronger. This is definitely a mission field that leaves you feeling like your heart has been torn from you, stomped on then placed back into your body to keep powering through beat by beat.
So this is my vision as hard and crazy as it sounds. As I sit here completely emotionally exhausted God will not stop calling on this broken heart of mine. Yes, I would buy a new house. I would buy a working farm or ranch. I would want to buy it where there are amazing hiking places. I would start a children’s home with the proper support staff. I would hire people with the same compassion and broken heart for what breaks God’s heart. It would be an amazing place with jobs for the children to be assigned to based on abilities and personalities. Nothing builds self esteem like a job well done. I would want to do therapy during hikes because who wants to just stare eye to eye with a therapist. Something about God’s creation truly relaxes and can cause true communication and healing to happen.
Truthfully I am worn out from just having one child that is in care at a time. Truthfully I do not have the resource within my own self nor financially to make this a reality. This one question has started to develop into a dream that God’s timing and provision can accomplish if it is in His will and plan. My heart aches for children who are “unwanted”, for children who push away the one’s that truly want to help, for the children who feel unworthy of love… My heart is to give as many children new Hope and a new beginning through the love of Jesus Christ. So if I had a million dollars or if money were no obstacle I would buy a new house. A house of Hope!!!!