Several Sundays ago as our pastor preached a sermon about God’s purpose for our lives this lady bug pictured above caught my eye. The insect was on the back of the chair directly in front of me. He walked along the top of the back of the chair one direction and started down the side then the next thing I noticed he had climbed back to the top and went on across to the side from where he just came. He repeated his trek multiple times. Back and forth back and forth. At one point the bug paused and looked straight towards me. We stared at each other for what felt like minutes. Our pastor preached on Deuteronomy 11:10-24 stressing how God’s word teaches us to serve and love God with all our heart and soul. He pointed out that when God is our focus all aspects of our lives fall into place with His provision, presence, promise, and protection. God gives us direction and a purpose in this chaotic world. The lady bug seemed to be placed very timely and specifically for me in that moment. He seemed to just be expending all his energy for nothing. He was just working and walking with no goal, no focus, no point. I was reminded of the passage in Ecclesiastes 1:1-18 mostly focusing on King Solomon’s words “Meaningless! Meaningless! Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless!”
My mind then wondered how often I look like and feel like this ladybug. Just running in circles, going back and forth, trying to solve the world’s problems, my own problems, and do everything on my own. God never intended this for His creation. His intention was to have a personal relationship with each and everyone of us. For our lives to have very significant meaning within His purpose and plan. As people close to me lose family members, friends have children battling cancer, as I see people I love overcome with grief and loss, a family in our area just lost their eight year old to cancer, young fathers and mothers battle life-threatening illness, the world seems over run with hatred and violence, all forms of government seem to be in a complete mess, people are missing, people are starving… I feel helpless within my own strength to be of any help. Helpless within my own power to make any sort of difference.
But when I turn my focus to loving God He reminds me of His love and power.
I can’t cure cancer, but I personally know the one who can.
I can’t bring peace and hope to a grieving heart, but I personally know the one who can.
I can’t cure the evil and the devastation evil acts bring upon lives, but I personally know the one who can.
I can’t save the world, but I personally know the one who can.
I don’t even have a clue how I can juggle service ministries, motherhood, work full-time as a nurse, care for our home, and now deepen my role as a mother by becoming a foster parent, but I personally know the one who can.
My prayer is for my eyes to look to Jesus and focus solely on Him. To fully trust the creator, my Savior, my Redeemer, my Father, my best friend, my protector, my organizer, my time keeper, my patience giver, my strength, my everything… without Him everything is meaningless…
Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”