It seems that God uses things that irritate me to teach me the best lessons. Our son we are adopting has a habit of constantly touching the walls in our home. A good habit we are trying to get instilled is good hand washing. We have far to go with the hand washing. Needless to say the walls are down right gross. As I see him placing his hands on the walls I remind him that he has two strong legs to stand on. There is not a need for touching the wall. He insists that he is in his “pre teen” years so he definitely is old enough to walk without touching everything. There are some sensory reasons behind the wall touching I am quite sure. Being aware of trauma needs is important. Alas it is a bad habit that needs a conscious effort on his part and our teaching to overcome.
Today I was going around each wall with a magic eraser sponge yet again. Feeling slightly irritated as I have to do this quite often. Recently our home was ravaged by a stomach virus and I feel even more paranoid with hygiene and cleanliness. God started flooding thoughts over my mind as I scrubbed. Here go the wall lessons for Anita today.
- I notice the dirty hand prints most in the bright day light. How true in our own life that if we let Jesus shine His light on our own hearts He sure reveals a lot of dirt.
- How much of a habit do I have in leaning on God? Do I turn to Him in prayer? Do I go to His word for all answers? Am I leaning on my own strength instead of Him?
- Do I rely on old habits to calm anxieties. Do I hang on to worry? Do I let go of false security and fully trust God?
- It takes a magic eraser to clean the walls in our home. It takes the blood of Jesus to clean our hearts. There is nothing magic to the remedy for our sin. It is the pure love, grace, mercy, and power of Jesus taking my sin to the cross, dying, and rising again that cleanses me.
- All people that I love have habits I can’t stand. God has shown me unconditional love and forgiveness. Truly loving them completely is to love their imperfections as well. I get to clean the walls for my family.
- Thank you God I have a home with walls and a family to make them dirty.
- I have qualities that are annoying to others and thank God they love me anyway.
- Thank you Jesus that you saved me even though I do not deserve it. Maybe I should make my boy clean the walls. Sometimes Grace is better and I will do it for now.
- I probably don’t even want to know how many times God has protected me from consequences and has shown me Grace.
- Dirty walls teach me patience and to prioritize. People or things first? Clean when you aren’t needing to focus on people.
Psalm 51:10 “Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.”
Walls will one day crumble, but the love God gives us to give to others will last for all of eternity!!